Maybe Then...
I wish I didn’t know what it felt like when you pull away.
Maybe then the emptiness in my chest wouldn’t mirror the emptiness in your eyes.
I know what your touch feels like when you want me.
I know what your voice sounds like when you need me.
I wish all these feelings were unfamiliar.
Maybe then the coldness of your shoulder wouldn’t mirror the coldness in your touch.
I wish I didn’t know the what your embrace felt like after I haven’t seen you in a while.
Maybe then my desire to be held wouldn’t keep me up at night.
I wish I didn’t know the sound of your genuine laugh.
Maybe then the sound of your smile wouldn’t hurt me so bad.
I wish I could just turn my heart off the way you do.
Maybe then….
Maybe then I wouldn’t hate to be in love with you.
- Ashley Mozingo